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Post by Essence Newman on Dec 19, 2009 0:50:48 GMT -5
Really, she should have caught on sooner. Essence had always been able to sense when there was another being in her presence. Something to do with her enhanced senses and animal side, she guessed. And she had this phantom feeling the past month or so... Like someone was around her. At first she thought it was Bradbury lurking. But then she was in the bathroom one day when it hit her strong. And her fox was nowhere to be found. She had just realized that it must mean that this other "being" must being inside her, rather than around her. And that's when she realized it. So, that's why she was standing in front of the brightly-colored boxes, lined up on the shelves in too-bright lighting. Trying to choose a pregnancy test. Because she wanted to be sure before she told Ryder anything. Finally choosing one, she made her way to the counter. Paying, she ignored the look the cashier gave her. Fixing her hood over her head, she headed back outside. It wasn't that far to home but the sun was almost completely above the horizon. Ryder would be up soon. She quickened her pace. Entering the house, she immediately slipped out of her shoes, trying to be as quiet as possible. Sneaking into the bedroom, she watched Ryder sleep a minute. She smiled softly before moving to the bathroom. Locking the door behind her, after Bradbury snuck in, she quickly did the deed. And two minutes later she had an answer. Sitting on the toilet seat, she rested her chin on her hands. Looking to Bradbury, she sighed. "Looks like I'm pregnant, Brad," she told him quietly. Well, fuck. |
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Post by Ryder on Dec 19, 2009 1:06:40 GMT -5
What..?Good dreams.. good dreams.. Dreams of Essence...
The sun shone through the curtains, hitting his face. He groaned, rolling the other way, his back turned to the morning sun. He wasn't ready to let go of such a great dream. "Mmm.." He threw his arm around, wanting to wrap it around Essence.. but it hit the bed with a thud.
Groggily, he opened his eyes to see he was the only one occupying the bed. "Ess?" He called out hoarsely. Where was she? He turned over, looking at the clock. Tooo early... Sleeep... Dream.. He grunted, slowly throwing the covers off of him and sitting up. "Ess, where are you?"
He walked down the hallway, if she was looking for a game of hide and seek well.. she won. Too early for that and too big of a house to search. "Don't make me walk around the house to find you.." He whined softly.
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Post by Essence Newman on Dec 19, 2009 1:21:02 GMT -5
"Ess? Ess, where are you?"
She opened her mouth to call a response but she choked on the words. Swallowing thickly, she murmured another expletive and passed a hand through her hair. This was a good thing. She tried to convince herself of that: this was good. This was good. This was going to be their family. So they were just engaged, so Sylar was still out there, so she was barely half-through with nineteen...
Okay. She could think it was good after her initial freak-out. Swallowing again, she opened her mouth to call for him but got cut off by his whine. "Don't make me walk around the house to find you.." She chuckled softly, shaking her head at him. She loved him even more when he had just woken up. The sleepiness gave him a soft edge and she imagined a younger Ryder, if he had had a decent mother and father.
Shit. She was going to be a mother. He was going to be a father.
Clearing her throat, she rose and exited the bathroom, Bradbury following curiously. She came upon him quickly and caught his shoulder. She gave an anemic grin as she met his eyes. Holding the testing device up for him to see, she licked her lips. "You got me pregnant," she declared, a laugh trailing on the end of her words.
She didn't know how but just seeing him...it made nearly all ofher worries completely disappate. At least for that moment.
[[whoa. semi-monster post. lol. sorry; essie had a lot to say. XD]]
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Post by Ryder on Dec 19, 2009 17:29:24 GMT -5
Remember when..He gave a sigh softly, his shoulders slumping as he stood in the hallway. A hand reached up, scratching at his head as he looked around sleepily. Well... fuck. Suddenly he felt a hand on his shoulder, as he turned, he saw her.. and her surprise.
"You got me pregnant,"
She was laughing.. but something told him not to take that bit of laughter in as a sign of everything was okay. He starred at the device.. this little stick, with a clearly written 'pregnant' written on the front. Now most men.. they'd be talking, or shouting.. happy.. mad.. any feeling whatsoever. But all he could do was stand there.
"I-What?" Yes, he saw it. Yes, he knew what she said. But he needed to hear that just one more time, for it to fully sink into him. Pregnant.. He blinked a few times, his arms like lifeless limbs at the side of his body as he stood there.
Pregnant.. Holy fuck.. He was going to be a daddy.. [[lol No problem. Next post will be his... excitedness-ness. lol]]
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Post by Essence Newman on Dec 19, 2009 18:01:29 GMT -5
His lack of response was kind of how she felt. Just...in utter shock. She couldn't even fathom it. There was a baby inside of her. She blinked once. Fuck; she was a child herself still! Okay, not really a child. But she was nowhere near being a mother. She dropped the hand that held the pregnancy test and blew out a breath, rustling her blond bangs.
"Pregnant, Ryder. Baby." She pointed to her abdomen to help demonstrate her point. She needed him to react so she knew how to react. Because at that moment, she wasn't sure how she felt about all this. Sure, she wanted a family with him. This was more of a timing thing. And, now that this was happening, she wasn't sure...about herself... Licking her lips, she looked up at him through her lashes, waiting.
[[sweet. ^ ^ get ready for insecure!essence; lol]]
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Post by Ryder on Dec 19, 2009 18:47:03 GMT -5
"Pregnant, Ryder. Baby."
He couldn't help but smile at the way she said it, the way she pointed at it. He licked his lips as he grabbed her face. "I heard you." He said softly, placing a delicate kiss to her lips. He took a deep breath after that, his mind spinning. "I'm going to be a dad?" He asked softly.
Sure they had plans for kids. Thus the buying of this large house. But she was only nineteen, and he.. well.. He couldn't help but be excited. A small smiled flashed on his face, and with each second it grew bigger. He laughed gently, shaking his head. "I'm gonna be a daddy."
Without any warning, he grabbed her, picking her up and whirling her around. "I'M GOING TO BE A DAD!"
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Post by Essence Newman on Dec 19, 2009 19:06:43 GMT -5
She couldn't help but chuckle at his immediate response. "Yes, baby, you're going to be a daddy," she replied, smiling softly. She laughed again as he repeated the statement. His smile made her forget her insecurities at least briefly. As he spun her around, she gave a playful shriek, clutching at him. She held on tight, wrapping her arms around his back and her legs around his waist.
"Careful, dude," she chastised gently. She rested her forehead on his. "Got a baby in here now." A nervous tremor ran through her as she said that but she ignored it. She couldbe happy for now. She could enjoy the moment and bask in his elation. She could be insecure and terrified later. She dropped a short kiss to his lips, holding him close.
Below her, Bradbury gave a yipping noise. She laughed lightly and looked down at her fox. "What d'you think, Brad? Boy or girl?" Bradbury merely barked again, dancing around Ryder's feet.
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Post by Ryder on Dec 21, 2009 2:36:31 GMT -5
"Careful, dude," she chastised gently. She rested her forehead on his. "Got a baby in here now."
He laughed softly, leaning against as wall as he stopped spinning. "Right, dudeette." He grinned, kissing her softly on the lips. "Only one thing left to say." He smiled, pausing for effect. "Three words.." He kissed her neck. "I." He kissed her cheek. "Love." He kissed her forehead. "The fuck outta." He chuckled, kissing the other side of her neck. "You." He sighed softly, leaning his head against hers as he held onto her tightly.
"What d'you think, Brad? Boy or girl?"
He looked down at the fox, smiling and laughing along with her. "What do-I mean--" He stumbled with his words as he carried them into the living room, careful [and yet tripping slightly] not to trample Bradbury. "What about you.. I mean, are you excited, nervous?" He chuckled lightly, plopping on the couch with her still attached to him. "Or what?"
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Post by Essence Newman on Dec 21, 2009 16:06:49 GMT -5
She chuckled as he laid kisses over her, enjoying it thoroughly. Once he was finished, she rubbed her nose against his lightly. "And I love you too." She giggled then and tacked on, "Even though you obviously can't count, because that was six words." She laughed again, showing she was only joking.
She sighed as they settled on the couch. Tucking her face against his neck, she hesitated. He was so excited... And he would be a great father. She could tell; she just knew. He would be the best father. But...
"Scared," she admitted softly against his skin. Because she didn't know if she could be a mother, a good mother. She would love the baby of course; hell, she already did. But that didn't mean she wouldn't fuck it up. "Excited too," she added on, as an afterthought. She was; she really was. She loved kids and having her own, especially with Ryder, would be amazing.
It was just a little hard to access the excitement with the all the fear of messing up in the way.
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Post by Ryder on Jan 16, 2010 22:53:40 GMT -5
"And I love you too." She giggled then and tacked on, "Even though you obviously can't count, because that was six words."
"Well, ya know I never really was good at math." He laughed softly. he landed a kiss to her temple. "Scared," "Why?" He asked softly, pushing her back back gently. "Excited too," He smiled. "That all?" He chuckled softly.
He was beyond excited--ecstatic was more like it. Of course, he was scared of fucking this up royally. Ess was the first--the first person to break down each and every wall he'd built around himself. She was going to be his wife--but that was a large jump to mother of his child.
He took in a calming breath, wrapping his arms around her. "Cause I have a million different feelings about this. But.. anxious and excited are clouding over everything."
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Post by Essence Newman on Jan 16, 2010 23:15:11 GMT -5
"Why?"
She shook her head, fitting it back against his neck. Pulling close to him, she swallowed dryly and shrugged. She didn't want to talk about it. Not yet at least. She wasn't quite used to the emotion yet and needed some time to adjust. "That all?" Once more she could only shrug and swallow.
She wanted to talk to him, she really did. She just wasn't sure how... Wasn't sure how to put the words together...
"Cause I have a million different feelings about this. But.. anxious and excited are clouding over everything."
She cuddled into his embrace, happy to have it. Nodding to his statement, she blew out a careful breath. With anyone else, she would cover it. She would pretend it was fine and shrug off the fear and insecurity. But with Ryder she couldn't...didn't want to. Licking her lips, she pulled her face from his neck but stayed close. She tucked her head under his chin, pressed against his collar.
"Can't really feel anything but almost-paralyzing fear," she admitted softly. "I mean, don't get me wrong: I'm happy. I'm really happy...to be starting a family with you, to be having your kid. But..." She sighed. She could do this. Pulling from him, she met his eyes and gnawed on her lowerlip. "I don't wanna fuck this up. Like, what do I know about being a mother, right?" She shook her head softly, looking to the side. "I'm barely an adult yet..."
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Post by Ryder on Jan 16, 2010 23:26:10 GMT -5
"Can't really feel anything but almost-paralyzing fear," she admitted softly. "I mean, don't get me wrong: I'm happy. I'm really happy...to be starting a family with you, to be having your kid. But..."
His brows furrowed as he watched her. I don't wanna fuck this up. Like, what do I know about being a mother, right?" She shook her head softly, looking to the side. "I'm barely an adult yet..." He shook his head, taking her face into his hands. "You'll be a great mom, and we have each other..Don't get me wrong I'm worried about fucking this up too.. but.." He sighed, dropping one hand to grab hers. "We're together in this."
"And besides, isn't Emma a mom, don't you babysit for her at times? I think that, in my book, makes you two friends. I'm sure she'll be there if y'know, we or you or me, have any.. parental questions, right?" He stumbled through that, he knew that. But it was best to get it out. Emma was there for them before..
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Post by Essence Newman on Jan 16, 2010 23:38:13 GMT -5
"You'll be a great mom, and we have each other..Don't get me wrong I'm worried about fucking this up too.. but.." He sighed, dropping one hand to grab hers. "We're together in this."
Essence leaning into his touch, rubbing her cheek against his hand a little. That was true. They were in this together. She had him; she would always have him with her. If she fucked up, he would catch her. And vice-versa. Messed up. "Messed up," not "fucked up." Because if they were gonna have a kid they should probably cut down on the cursing.
She felt a slow smile come to her face as he took her hand. He always knew exacty what to say to her. Christ. He was so perfect, perfect for her.
"And besides, isn't Emma a mom, don't you babysit for her at times? I think that, in my book, makes you two friends. I'm sure she'll be there if y'kno, we or you or me, have any.. parental questions, right?"
"Right," she agreed. "Right; you're right." She chuckled airily. "You're always right." She fell back against him, feeling a lot better already. They were in this together. Everything would be okay, because they were in this together. She looped her arms around his neck. "Thank you; I love you."
Bradbury licked at her toes and she giggled softly at the sensation. "Hey, " she declared softly. "We're having a baby." Fear almost completely replaced with excited, she liked thinking about it now. She was pregnant. She was carrying his child. They were going to have a baby. Together. They were going to have a baby together.
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Post by Ryder on Jan 16, 2010 23:50:24 GMT -5
"Right," she agreed. "Right; you're right." She chuckled airily. "You're always right."
He laughed softly, shaking his head. "Not always." His hand lifted, tucking a piece of her hair behind her ear. "What does that mean though; do we move the wedding up. I mean I don't think you want to walk down the isle pregnant.." He chuckled. "Thank you; I love you." He leaned his forehead against hers, catching her lips gently. "I love you too."
"Hey.. We're having a baby."
He laughed, grinning from ear to ear as he looked down at the fox. "Yes.. wait we need a crib, and.. everything." He looked back at her. "How about we go.. get dressed--get some breakfast at.. somewhere." He chuckled. "Then we can go out and.. start getting some stuff."
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Post by Essence Newman on Jan 17, 2010 0:03:07 GMT -5
"What does that mean though; do we move the wedding up. I mean I don't think you want to walk down the isle pregnant.."
Oooh, good question. She took her lip beneath her teeth thinking that over. No, she certainly did not want to walk down the aisle pregnant... It would make the white dress kind of obsolete. But she didn't want to rush into it. She didn't want to have to think about planning a wedding -as lowkey as she wanted it- and getting ready for a baby. Also, she didn't want anyone getting the wrong idea about the wedding. She was marrying him because she loved him and wanted to spend the rest of her life with him; not just because he had knocked her up...
But that meant pushing the wedding back. Did she want to do that? More importantly: would Ryder mind? She sighed softly; only one way to find out.
"I think... Would you mind, maybe...waiting? Until after?" she rested a hand to her stomach, indicating what she meant by "after."
She smiled with him, falling into another brief kiss. Listening to his plans, she chuckled. Sure, maybe it was a little early to be buying things, but why not? "Sounds like fun," she said sincerely. "Wonder what we got," she mused absently, looking to her abdomen.
She wanted a boy. She really, really wanted a boy. An awesome dude could be her little rocker... Yeah, so maybe the mom was supposed to want a girl. But she wanted a boy. Not that she wouldn't love a daughter, of course.
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Post by Ryder on Jan 17, 2010 0:23:23 GMT -5
He waited patiently as she decided. Sitting there in the morning, one the couch.. this was perfect. How could anything get any better than what he has right now. No.. it was getting better. She was going to be his life, and the mother of his child. This was.. bliss.
"I think... Would you mind, maybe...waiting? Until after?"
He scratched at his eyebrow. "Yeah, we can wait--I mean if that's what you want." He could wait. He wasn't going anywhere. He knew, she was the one he wanted to spend the rest of his life with. His trailed to the ceiling as muffled music lofted down into the living room. "Should we.. tell her, or wait?" He asked, brows furrowed.
"Sounds like fun," she said sincerely. "Wonder what we got,"
Of course it was early. But he was beyond excited, and he wanted this child to have everything.. everything he didn't when he was growing up. He would make sure he loved her.. or him. He didn't understand it, but he was hoping for a girl. Apple of his eye--his princess.
Not that he wouldn't love a boy, of course.
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Post by Essence Newman on Jan 17, 2010 0:33:58 GMT -5
"Yeah, we can wait--I mean if that's what you want."
"Mmm," she hummed in the positive. "I think so." She wasn't worried. It would happen, she knew. It would happen with him. They just needed to take one thing at a time. Baby, then wedding.
"Should we.. tell her, or wait?"
Essence looked up with him. "Nova?" she confirmed. She thought it over a minute before breaking into soft giggles. "Not just yet. I'm being selfish really; enjoying the moment with just you." Bradbury yipped at that, nipping her big toe. "Apologies, with you and Brad." She shot a grin to Ryder. Pulling his hand into hers, she toyed with his fingers. "We can tell her tonight, yeah?"
As she was imagining her potential son's life, she had the feeling that Ryder was doing the same. Only... "You want a girl, don't you?" Something in her just knew, could tell. He wanted a little girl; a daughter to spoil and cuddle and to be his little princess. She smirked to him, sitting back in his lap.
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Post by Ryder on Jan 17, 2010 1:18:17 GMT -5
"Mmm," she hummed in the positive. "I think so."
"Okay then, pushed back it is. Besides, that gives us more time right? I mean we haven't decided anything, or planned anything yet, have me?" "Nova?" He gave a nod, his eyes traveling to the ceiling again, before falling back to her.
"Not just yet. I'm being selfish really; enjoying the moment with just you. Apologies, with you and Brad. We can tell her tonight, yeah?"
He gave a nod, his hand raking through her hair. "Sounds good to me." He smiled. "Still hard to believe I have a sister." He said, sighing softly as he rested his head in his hand, his arm resting on the back of the couch.
"You want a girl, don't you?"
He laughed softly, nodding. "Yeah, I think it'd be nice. Not that I wouldn't love having a son."
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Post by Essence Newman on Jan 17, 2010 1:45:20 GMT -5
"Okay then, pushed back it is. Besides, that gives us more time right? I mean we haven't decided anything, or planned anything yet, have we?"
She shook her head, getting a little dizzy at the thought. Everytime she started to think about that she just got lost. There was so much to do, wasn't there? Couldn't they just hire some food and a preacher and tell their closest friends and family when to be where... She didn't need all that pomp and circumstance. And she didn't think he would either... She looked to Ryder, curious.
Well, as long as he wasn't in a suit, it would be okay. She didn't want any thoughts of Ace/Sylar tainting their day.
"Sounds good to me." He smiled. "Still hard to believe I have a sister."
She shuddered pleasurably at his touch, eyes slipping closed. "Yeah," she hummed. "It's a little weird." More than a little. And she was still kind of wary of the girl. Just...being cautious. "And she's just just two years younger than me." She grinned, eyes still closed. She loved to tease him with that.
"Yeah, I think it'd be nice. Not that I wouldn't love having a son."
"It'd be nice," she agreed wistfully. A little girl would be nice. Pretty little girl... "Son would be awesome," she added, grinning. Laughing, she said, "He could be our little rockstar." She could just see it now...
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Post by Ryder on Jan 17, 2010 2:01:31 GMT -5
"Yeah," she hummed. "It's a little weird." More than a little. And she was still kind of wary of the girl. Just...being cautious. "And she's just just two years younger than me."
He shook his head, a playful smile on his lips. "Mm, yes." He chuckled lightly. Son would be awesome," He laughed openly at that. So she wanted a son. He wouldn't mind having a little guy running around. They could do alot of guy things together.
"He could be our little rockstar."
"Oh?" He nodded, smiling. "I can see that, bigger than nickleback and the rest of them combined." He joked softly. His stomach rumbled softly, he placed a hand over it and scoffed. "Guess that's my cue to get up--get dressed-- and take you out to eat." He smirked, leaning in and kissing her softly.
"Mmm.. gotta get dressed." He moaned softly, forcing himself up and off the couch.
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