Just let me say...

[Dean]

Forever & Always

The boom of the speakers slowed down as another song came over the radio. Everything was changing, including his selection of music. At the moment, a soft R&B played over the radio as he drove back home. He had just dropped all the kids off at Colette's for a day of fun.

He'd actually been planning this for a week. A nice day with just him and Harm. He'd spent most of the month spending time with his friends, but now it was family time. But first, he needed some alone time with Harmony.

Parking the car, he opened the door and smiled as the familiar house. He stood there a moment, letting it sink in, before making the climb up the stairs and pushing the door open. "I'm back." He called out. "By the way, Logan wanted me to remind you of the upcoming t-ball tryouts." He smiled, throwing his keys on the counter.

Walking into the kitchen, his arms wrapped around her from behind as he kissed her neck. "Did you miss me?" He smirked, laying his chin on her shoulder.

[Harmony]

Love of My Life

Huffing softly she blew the few strands of hair from her face tiredly. She had been cleaning all day, and usually she would be way more tired...but since she wasn't chasing munchkins around all day she was actually feeling more energized than she had in a while. The radio in the kitchen was playing some country softly -- It was her guilty pleasure, though she wasn't sure Dean was a big fan -- And she hummed along as she scrubbed at the stove top.

The kitchen was just about cleaned spotless when a familar sound of footsteps entered the door. A smile immeadiately climbed across her face. Her baby was home, and all she wanted to do now was be in his arms. After cleaning all day she deserved a little down time. His voice rang throughout the whole house.

"I'm back." He called out. "By the way, Logan wanted me to remind you of the upcoming t-ball tryouts."

Harmony's smile grew as he emerged into the kitchen. She shook her head softly. "That little booger. I told him 8 times that I already sent the Head coach an e-mail." She grinned. Feeling the familiar warmth of his arms wrapped around she smiled softly closing her eyes as he kissed her neck.

"Did you miss me?"

She giggled turning around in his arms. Wrapping her arms around his neck she pressed her body against his. "Oh more than you could ever know." Leaning forward she pressed her lips to his. The kiss was somewhat long and very passionate. Cleaning fumes definently made her loopy, but this was her just expressing her love. Harmony truthfully hated every moment away from him, and well she loved showing it.

She finally pulled away smirking. "Does that make you feel missed?" She giggled. "Because I can show you just how much you were missed...." She bit down on her bottom lip. Harmony and Dean had fallen short of 'relations' lately, with Regan having nightmares about Kandy....and Logan non-stop talking about T-ball. There was barely anytime for the two of them to be romantic with one another. They loved their children, but they did need a little time to themselves even if it was just for the rest of the afternoon.

[Dean]

"That little booger. I told him 8 times that I already sent the Head coach an e-mail."

He chuckled softly, laying another kiss to her neck. "That sounds like him." He muttered softly. "He's just excited." He smiled. It was nice, having the house to themselves. But, he felt like they were inside too much, and it was after all, a beautiful spring day. "Oh more than you could ever know." He raised a brow, a soft smirk on his face. "Ohh.." He chuckled softly.

As she pressed her lips to his, he smiled, one hand on her neck, the other on her back as he kissed back. "Does that make you feel missed?" She giggled. "Because I can show you just how much you were missed...."

He chuckled softly. "Mm, that sounds so good." He paused then. "But," He chuckled, rubbing her back lightly. "I already made plans..." He leaned over her head, opening the cabinet, and pulling out a picnic basket.

Raising a brow, his eyes fell back down to hers. "I wonder how that got there..." He laughed softly, as he leaned in and gave her a soft gentle kiss. "What do you say... you, me, under a tree, good food, good times...?" He grinned.

[Harmony]

Harmony shook her head. Logan was too excited to play T-ball. He wanted to show his mommy and daddy and baby ray ray that he could play ball as good as the pros. Her smile grew brighter at the thought of her wonderful children.

As the kiss ended she smiled up at Dean listening to him wanting his lips back on hers.
"Mm, that sounds so good." He paused then. "But," He chuckled, rubbing her back lightly. "I already made plans..." She made a pouty face and tugged on his jacket, but it soon melted into a smile as soon as she saw him reached in the cabinet and pull out a picnic basket.

She pushed him playfully. "I thought you were going to leave me to go hang with your friends....once again." She joked. It was hard to be mad at him about anything when he was smiling down at her his hand rubbing her back.

"I wonder how that got there..." He laughed softly, as he leaned in and gave her a soft gentle kiss. "What do you say... you, me, under a tree, good food, good times...?"

Biting her lip she looked down at the floor as if she was truly thinking about it. "I don't know... I mean it's been a while since I got to spend some lonely time with you....what if you take advantage of me?" She giggled and accepted the kiss with a smile. "I would love to go on a picnic with you...Just know when we get home....no bull shit." She laughed at her own seriousness. "It's on when we get home." She laughed again.

"Do I get to change out of my raggy clothes or do I have to go like this?" She grimaced at her cleaning clothes.

[Dean]

"I thought you were going to leave me to go hang with your friends....once again."

He sighed softly, not wanting to move from his position. His arms wrapped around her waist, a soft smirk on his face. "Why would I want to go there again when I had made plans to spend the entire day with you. My lovely wife, mother of my kids..." He paused, placing a hand on her belly. "Soon to be mother again." He chuckled, giving her another soft kiss.

"I don't know... I mean it's been a while since I got to spend some lonely time with you....what if you take advantage of me?"

He had to hold in that chuckle that wanted so badly to come out as he leaned in, nibbling on her neck. "Baby," He whispered in her ear. "I think it's the other way around." He grinned, giving her a kiss.

"I would love to go on a picnic with you...Just know when we get home....no bull shit." She laughed at her own seriousness. "It's on when we get home."

He chuckled, kissing her forehead. "I already knew that." He grinned. "Way ahead of you." His eyes trailed down her body. "Mm, mm, Mmmm." He chuckled softly.

"Do I get to change out of my raggy clothes or do I have to go like this?"

He could see that look of slight disgust as she looked down at her clothes. He shook his head gently, a soft smile on his face. "Baby, you look beautiful in your New York giants shirt and that baseball cap." He smiled, leaning forward and giving her a kiss on the forehead. "But I understand if you want to change."

[Harmony]

Picnic Love

"Why would I want to go there again when I had made plans to spend the entire day with you. My lovely wife, mother of my kids..." He paused, placing a hand on her belly. "Soon to be mother again." He chuckled, giving her another soft kiss.

Harmony accepted the kiss and let a small laugh escape her lips. "Well I believe you...only becasue it's absolutely too hard to be mad at you for anything. She gave a sly grin before leaning forward and placing a soft kiss on his lips, nibbling at his bottom one before pulling away. "A very sexy soon to be mother. Who do you know that looks this hot while pregnant?" She joked gesturing to her body.

"Baby," He whispered in her ear. "I think it's the other way around." He grinned, giving her a kiss.
She closed her eyes as he kissed her neck. He always had a way with his lips. Always making her feel like it was all a dream. A very very good dream. When he whispered in her ear it sent chills down her spine that made her giggle. "Oh you know me too well, Dean Winchester."

"I already knew that." He grinned. "Way ahead of you." His eyes trailed down her body. "Mm, mm, Mmmm." He chuckled softly.

Biting her bottom lip she gave him a sensual look. "Okay as long as you prepared for whats coming." She felt her smile grow wider. Honestly, she was surprised that they were going out when she so badly wanted to stay in. But horniess was sadly a symptom of pregnancy. Weird right? Horniess got you into the position of pregnancy and even then you can't escape it...

Looking down at her clothes with disgust she wanted to change. When you have a husband who always looks so damn good you can't go out in public looking like she did now, no she had to atleast get a bit decent. "Baby, you look beautiful in your New York giants shirt and that baseball cap." He smiled, leaning forward and giving her a kiss on the forehead. "But I understand if you want to change."

"Babe, I know you think I look beautiful, but I wanna be the woman you want to show off. You can't parade me around looking like this, love. That and I'm pretty sure you rather see me in my sexy shorts. Harmony laughed and began to walk towards the bedroom. "Won't take me that long... She entered the room and slipped off her clothes. Giggling she stood naked and leaned on the side of the doorway. "I say I go like this? What do you say? She smirked and gave him a wink then slinked back into the room and put on a quick outfit and ran a brush through her hair.

"I'm ready, baby. Let's get this wonderful day on the road.

[Dean]

"Well I believe you...only becasue it's absolutely too hard to be mad at you for anything."

"Oooh." He said with a light laugh. "I see how it is. I'll remember that for future references." He grinned. "Who do you know that looks this hot while pregnant?" He smirked, leaning closer. "Absolutely no one." He grinned, leaning down and giving her a light kiss on the lips.

"Oh you know me too well, Dean Winchester. Okay as long as you prepared for whats coming."

Laughing, he turned, grabbing a bottled water from the fridge. "That's right, I do. Harmony Winchester." He said, raising a single brow at her with a light smirk. "Hey, believe me. I am ready." He chuckled, taking a sip from the bottle.

"Babe, I know you think I look beautiful, but I wanna be the woman you want to show off. You can't parade me around looking like this, love. That and I'm pretty sure you rather see me in my sexy shorts. Won't take me that long..."

He waved her off as he continued to down the tiny bottle of water. A moment later she emerged completely naked. "I say I go like this? What do you say?" Laughing softly, he nodded. "I'd say hell yes, but I'm sure you'd get arrested." He smirked, and there was that sinking feeling in his stomach as she disappeared again.

That feeling of dread, of apprehension, of guilt and clear fear. Taking in a deep breath, he just held it in, until the feeling slowly passed. "I'm ready, baby. Let's get this wonderful day on the road." Looking up, he smiled softly. "You look beautiful." He said softly. "Alright, let's go." Grabbing the basket, he headed for the door.

It didn't take long at all to get there, and before you knew it, they were looking for a spot to relax. "Your pick." He smiled, as he held her hand.

[Harmony]

Picnic Love

As she threw on a new oufit she heard his reply to her going naked. "I'd say hell yes, but I'm sure you'd get arrested." Her laughter carried into the kitchen. 'I figured you'd say that. She laughed a little more. Once she was ready she came waltzing out of the room a bright smile on her face. Though the fact that he could talk about being arrested so openly scared her.

They were both scared for what was to come. It cou;dn't be long before the authority found out about Kandy. Sure, she was pyscho, but she was still a person. And killing someone was against the law. Dean was going to go to jail. For how long? No one knew. When? Still no one knew. How do you enjoy the days with someone you love when they could be numbered?

"You look beautiful." He said softly. "Alright, let's go." Grabbing the basket, he headed for the door.

Harmony nodded. "Thank you baby. They made their way out the door and to the car. It didn't take too long to get there and they were enjoying the silence of the ride holding hands and the mood light and bubbly. She could feel the love in the air even though no words were spoken.

They got out of the car and made there way into the park holding hands. "Your pick." She looked around the park and found a nice spot next to small pond and underneath a tall oak tree. She pointed to that spot and began walking there with him in tow. When they reached the spot she spread out the blanket and sat down.

"This was the best surprise ever baby. Thank you so much."

[Dean]

"This was the best surprise ever baby. Thank you so much."

He smiled, as she spread the blanket out. Sitting the basket down, he took a seat, his back against the oak tree, holding at hand out to her. "Your welcome, honey." He grinned. As she took his hand, he pulled her down. Spreading his legs, he stretched them out and pulled her in between them, leaning her back against his chest as his arms wrapped around her.

"I gotta say, I did bring you here with a purpose." He whispered in her ear, as his heart began to ache. "We both know what's going to happen, and those close to us know too. Like Emma and Cian." He pointed out softly. "I never meant for this to happen." He whispered, his lips moving to her shoulder as he let them linger there a moment as tears sprung to his eyes.

It was the unknown that scared him most.

"They could trial me for manslaughter." He swallowed, closing his eyes. "I did some research, and if they call you on the stand, I want you to tell them we had to; tell them that it was self-defense. Because it was, and if they rule in my favor, I could do only minimal time in prison." He sighed. "But if they don't rule in my favor, I want you to be prepared, baby..." He murmured.

"I want you to know, that I love you. With my whole heart, soul and entire being. That there is no one else in this earth, besides out kids, that mean more to me than you." Pausing, he wiped at his face. "I want you to know that I set aside some--" His voice cracked then and he shook his head.

This was just too hard...

[Harmony]

"Your welcome, honey."

She took his hand and sat between his legs like they had often sat before. Harmony leaned back against his chest and felt the pattern of his breathing and she knew in that moment that everything was great, and would stay that way between them. Then like always something shifted in the air and she felt his breath quicken only a tad before he opened his mouth to speak. Whatever he was about to say, he didn't like.

"I gotta say, I did bring you here with a purpose." He whispered in her ear, as his heart began to ache. "We both know what's going to happen, and those close to us know too. Like Emma and Cian." He pointed out softly. "I never meant for this to happen."

Her eyes began to tear up as he spoke and his lips met her shoulder. She shifted slightly in his arms and stared into his teary eyes. She felt a lump in her throat form, but she pushed past it in order to get out what she wanted to say. "Nothing is going to happen...It was what had to be done. Baby, I know you didn't mean for any of it to happen. Maybe they won't even bother with looking for her killer.." She knew the minute she spoke those words that she sounded ridiculous. Of course they were going to look for someone who had murdered another person.

"They could trial me for manslaughter." He swallowed, closing his eyes. "I did some research, and if they call you on the stand, I want you to tell them we had to; tell them that it was self-defense. Because it was, and if they rule in my favor, I could do only minimal time in prison." He sighed. "But if they don't rule in my favor, I want you to be prepared, baby..."

Harmony ran her finger along his cheek wiping awaay the stray tear that had fallen from his eye. "Dean...baby. Please stop talking like this. You're scaring me." Her voice was betraying her it was cracking in places that would never crack. She normally tried to be so much stronger for him, but the thought of losing him again was unbearable. She couldn't raise another set of kids without him. She needed her family man with her. He continued to speak, maing the tears in her eyes well up even bigger.

"I want you to know, that I love you. With my whole heart, soul and entire being. That there is no one else in this earth, besides out kids, that mean more to me than you." Pausing, he wiped at his face. "I want you to know that I set aside some--"

Those tears in her eyes had began to flow by now. Harmony had to force herself to hold back the sob she wanted to let out. She turned again in his lap and threw her arms around his neck hiding her face in the nape of his neck. "Dean please don't say it. Please. I'm begging you. Don't make me feel like I'm going to be alone. I can't do it again. I can't lose you." She muttered into his skin feeling even more broken than she had when she had found out he was dead. When she thought he was dead it was easier to be angry, but if he was in jail it was easier to feel like it was her fault. She couldn't be alone again. Her children were her life, but if she lost Dean...

There would be no sunshine, because everyday it would rain.

[Dean]

"Nothing is going to happen...It was what had to be done. Baby, I know you didn't mean for any of it to happen. Maybe they won't even bother with looking for her killer.."

He knew no words were needed. Just by lookin at her face. That look of wanted to retract that last sentence from reality. He gave a half smile, before looking down at his hands. The hands that held two kids, and one beautiful woman. The hands that had killed more than most would understand. And here, he thought he had escaped his past. His head shook as he sighed softly, his brows furrowed in deep thought.

"Dean...baby. Please stop talking like this. You're scaring me."

Scaring her was the last thing he wanted to do. But, he needed to get this out here and now. So they could spend the rest of this time in each others arms. No one knew when they'd track him down. It could be two years from now, or tomorrow for all he knew. "I'm sorry, baby. I am, but... I have to get this out."

"Dean please don't say it. Please. I'm begging you. Don't make me feel like I'm going to be alone. I can't do it again. I can't lose you."

Her arms wrapped around his neck and he could feel hot tears on his neck as she spoke. His eyes closed as tears welled inside them. His hands rubbed at her back, trying to soothe her. "Hey, hey, hey." He paused, pulling her away from him slightly, just enough to look into her eyes.

"You are never alone. Even if I'm not by your side. I'm always there for you. Hell couldn't stop me, could it?" He flashed a light smirk, just to see a smile on her face. "I put away some money. Things I've been planning to pass down to Logan, and Regan."

He knew this was a lot to take in. But he really needed her to know even if he's not around. Sh'd always be well taken care of.

[Harmony]

"I'm sorry, baby. I am, but... I have to get this out."

It felt too real, and well she knew it was real...but if she could only pretend ofr a little longer that they were a perfect family and they would always be together. Even her fantasies weren't perfect. Nothing was perfect and she knew that, but she wanted it to be oh so badly. She just wanted Dean, and her babies to live in a perfect world. It was an impossible dream.

"Hey, hey, hey."

Harmony didn't want him to try to make it better. It was so easy to smile when he made her, but she wanted to be upset. She was on ther verge of losing her husband for protecting his family, and he was trying to make her feel like it was okay. She couldn't possibly feel like it was okay, but as it seemed he pulled her away and looked at her face. Her eyes were still flowing with tears as he spoke to her again his tone changing.

"You are never alone. Even if I'm not by your side. I'm always there for you. Hell couldn't stop me, could it?"

She looked at him and smiled a little through her tears. She shook her head and wiped her tears. "That's not even remotely funny, Dean Winchester." Her smiled faded a bit as he began talking again. "I put away some money. Things I've been planning to pass down to Logan, and Regan." Harmony only nodded she wanted to stop being sad she wanted to make what was left of this evening the best.

"Okay. I understand. Can we just pretend...just for today that everything is still okay?" She looked at him her eyes still watering. She leaned forward and kissed him. "I love you Dean, and whether you are always with me or in....god forbid...a jail cell. I will never love another man more than I love you. Except for our son of course." She gave a light sad smile before kissing him again.