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Post by Harmony on Oct 23, 2009 18:26:03 GMT -5
Harmony sat on the couch in a mood that could only mean relaxed and satisfied. She had given birth to a beautiful baby girl and she was trying to get her figure back to its slimming shape, but she was still happy to have Regan out of her stomach. She sat there popping small hershey kisses into her mouth as she watched someone on Dr.Phil cry about their eating disorder. Which only made her giggle softly as she looked at the pile of candy wrappers on the coffee table. Logan was asleep next to her on the couch while Regan was asleep in the play pen next to the couch. She was at peace. It was six 'o' clock and Dean was due home any minute. He had been acting distant ever since Emma's wedding. She noticed that he couldn't quite look her in the eyes when he spoke to her now-a-days. She thought she had done something wrong. She couldn't think of anything except that she gained some weight, but she had been pregnant she is allowed to be a little plump until she sheds those pounds off. She sighed as Dr.Phil ended. She stood up looking for her other stash of candy. She looked in the vase on the fireplace mantel. Nothing, zip, zilch, nada. No candy = no sugar rush therefore she was soon to crash of no energy. This was the first time Regan had fell asleep for more than an hour in two weeks. Not to mention, at night when she began to cry she got up knowing Dean had to go to work the next day. All he did was work, eat, sleep, and maybe if she was lucky she would get a soft peck on the cheek. No sex in three weeks. Not counting all the months of her pregnancy. She has been sexless for quite sometime. Maybe she could try to cheer him up tonight. The kids seem willing to sleep longer than usual. This may be their one oppurtunity for a while. She grinned at her babies. "I hope ya'll still have some sleepiness still in ya... Cause momma needs a night with daddy." She smiled from ear to ear. Maybe the reason he was so sulky all the time was because he wasn't getting sexy kisses and sex. Maybe this would solve everything. She grinned. This will solve everything. |
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Post by Dean on Oct 23, 2009 18:42:43 GMT -5
He rubbed at his neck as he opened the door and walked into the house. Both kids were asleep and Harmony was lounging on the couch. "Hey." He smiled, walking over and giving her a soft kiss before heading to the fridge. "Anything good to eat?" He asked, opening it up and looking around. "I'm starved."
Things indeed had been tense between them. Every time he wanted to confess to her why things were stressed, he seemed to chicken out, or something came up suddenly. He wondered how long he could go on carring this weight on his shoulders. For christ's sake... It was just a kiss... He told himself, grabbing a beer. A kiss that happened to turn into a make out session...
He sighed, closing his eyes as he started putting together a sandwich. I'll tell her today.. I gotta tell her. He repeatedly told himself. Today's the day... No matter what.. I'll tell her.
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Post by Harmony on Oct 23, 2009 18:57:21 GMT -5
Harmony grinned as Dean walked through the door. "I think there is something in there... I don't know about anything good though." She stood up and walked into the kitchen. She stood behind him as he made his sandwhich. She wrapped her arms around his neck.
"How was your day baby?" She began to massage his shoulders and she leaned forward and kissed the nape of his neck. He needed to relax. She could tell as soon as she walked in the kitchen that he was as tense as ever. She kept massaging him softly as she began to talk.
"I think I know what had got you so worked up lately..." She grinned. "I think it's becuase it's been about 7 months and a couple weeks since we ahve had sex." She giggle. "Dean Winchester I would have never thought you were such a sex fiend that you would mope when you didn't get any.."
She giggled and leaned on him soflty letting her arms linger on his chest. She kissed his cheek and stepped back from him. "Sorry your eating." She grinned. She leaned on the wall looking at him with a smile. This would surely loosen him up. Well atleast she hoped.
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Post by Dean on Oct 23, 2009 19:09:02 GMT -5
He smiled softly. "Same as usual. Not bad." He answered, biting into the sandwich as she messaged his neck and shoulders. The feel of her lips on his neck was one he missed greatly. Yet he felt guilty going on with their life while keeping a secret from her.
"I think I know what had got you so worked up lately..."
He nearly choked on his sandwich before she went on. He laughed softly. "Well.. you know me." he shrugged, smiling softly as he kissed her. "It's okay." He smiled lightly. His conscious was weighing heavily on him now. "So.. you think sex is my problem.. and my solution?" He laughed, finishing off the food and wiping his hands on his jeans. He took a drink of his beer and smiled. "I like that idea but.."
Why does this have to be so hard...?
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Post by Harmony on Oct 24, 2009 23:20:32 GMT -5
Harmony grinned softly at his comment. "Of course sex is always the curse and the cure." She giggled softly and kept herself next to the wall. She wondered why he almost choked earlier. He was acting weird. That had caught her off gaurd, but what he said next threw her off. "You like the idea...but what?" She instantly got into a serious-like mood.
"Dean. What is so horrid that it is distracting you so badly?" She asked softly. "Is it something I did?" She paused. "I need to know becuase seeing you this way is killing me....I've never seen you this way...especially not when I offer sex." She took a shaky breath. What if he didn't want her anymore. Did she get uglier? Fatter? Does she have a horrible odor? She couldn't think of anything that would turn him off this way.
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Post by Dean on Oct 27, 2009 0:01:53 GMT -5
"You like the idea...but what?"
He sighed heavily, moving past her to the living room. He grabbed the remote, turning off the TV. He didn't know how to tell her this, and by the looks of it, Regan was starting to wake up. He walked over to the playpen, reaching he he patted her back softly. "Shh..." He said softly, soothing her back to sleep.
"Dean. What is so horrid that it is distracting you so badly?" She asked softly. "Is it something I did?" She paused. "I need to know because seeing you this way is killing me....I've never seen you this way...especially not when I offer sex."
He looked back at her while she still stood in the kitchen. He walked over, taking her hand and leading her to the bedroom. Once inside, he closed the door behind them. "No. You did nothing wrong, Harm.. It's me." He told her gently.
He starred at her, wondering how to tell her. How she'd react. "Harm.. I need... I've been..." He sighed heavily and took a seat at the foot of the bed. "This is so hard." He lowered his head, his arms hung loosely over his legs. "I know I've been acting strange, and I know you don't deserve this after all you've done. You gave me two beautiful children, and I love you with all of my heart Harmony, I do."
Best to come straight out with it huh? He took a deep breath. "About three months ago, a couple nights before Emma was to be wed..." God.. He closed his eyes. "She called me late at night. I.. we met at the park and we started talking. I was still trying to get ahold of my new power..." He shook his head. "Something happened."
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Post by Regan on Oct 27, 2009 20:16:10 GMT -5
Regan whimpered softly, hearing the loudness of mommy and daddy's voices. She felt a warm hand on her back. By the feel of it, it was Daddy. Her whimpers turned quiet as he patted her. She knew his trick. He wanted her to go back to sleep.
Suddenly, he stopped. Her head lifted up slightly as she looked around. Where'd he go? "mmm." her hands reached out for someone to hold her. Her bottom lip poked out as it trembled slightly. "Mmm!" She said louder as she started to cry.
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Post by Harmony on Oct 27, 2009 20:42:45 GMT -5
Harmony stood watching as he walked from soothing Regan to come to comfort her. Her eyes already tearing up. "Dean." She said softly, but he grabbed her hand and led her to the bedroom so they could talk in private. She watched as he neverously sat on the bed. She heard his words, but they didn't sink in until he said. "Something happened."
Her vision blurred for a moment as she took a deep breath. She stood in front of him and kept taking deep breaths. "Like what Dean..." She paused. "What happened?" She paused. "Becuase all this talk of me giving you beautiful babies is that a decoy so that I won't know what you did with Emma." She paused shaking her head her voice raising with every word.
"Wait...Does Cian know that something happened?" She paused looking into his eyes sternly. "Dean..." She looked away from him. "If you slept with her..." She paused trying to steady her breaths. She spoke those words as calm as she could. She looked down at him her blue eyes pooling over with tears.
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Post by Dean on Oct 27, 2009 20:51:17 GMT -5
"Like what Dean..." She paused. "What happened?" She paused. "Because all this talk of me giving you beautiful babies is that a decoy so that I won't know what you did with Emma."
He could hear Regan crying out from behind the closed door. "No.. I'm." He sighed. "I'm telling you now aren't I?" He asked, raising his voice slightly to meet hers. He knew this wasn't going to end well. But there was no stopping now, was there?
"Wait...Does Cian know that something happened?" She paused looking into his eyes sternly. "Dean..." She looked away from him. "If you slept with her..."
He gave her a look, his brows furrowed. "No.." He shook his head. "And yes, Cian knows.. He's known for quite some time." He took a deep breath. "I would never cheat on you, Harmony. Ever." He told her, taking to his feet, pulling her close to him.
"Everything just happened so quickly, and Emma's thoughts were bombarding my own. I couldn't.. I couldn't think and I needed her to stop." He sighed, his eyes closed as he wrapped his arms around her tightly. His cheek resting on the top of her head.
"I made a mistake." He offered softly. "I.. We.." God.. his heart was pounding in his chest. "Kissed."
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Post by Harmony on Oct 27, 2009 21:05:37 GMT -5
Harmony could hear her baby crying, but the motherly instict was pushed away by the words she was about to say. He wrapped his around her and she so wanted to just fall asleep in his arms. Then she heard what he said and all hell broke loose in her mind. She slipped out of his arms just as quickly as he had put them around her. "You what?" She said softly. "You kissed her even though you knew how I felt in the past about your relationship with her?" She backed up unitl she was up against the wall.
"You couldn't have told me earlier?" She raised her voice again. "Oh Dean Winchester you of all people should know that holding something like that in is worse than telling it." She paused. "So I guess you didn't care enough to wake me up and tell me..." She turned away from him looking to the corner of the room. "You disgust me..." She turned back to him with what felt like red rimmed eyes.
"You said she was like a daughter to you and you kissed her!" She growled out. "How does that solve anything." She said now in a full on scream. "If her thoughts were jumbled sticking your tounge down her throat won't sort them out!" She paused once again. "But you know what I think..." She started to step towards him. "I think that I will never be that sweet loving pure soul like Emma." She paused and sighed. "I will never be her and your just upset that you got involved with me before she came along."
She had one last thing to say. One thing that she knew would sting him on the inside. "I will never be here...and I bet if we didn't have our kids that you would have dropped me like a fly and went for her." She said biting her lower lip to keep from crying.
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Post by Logan on Oct 27, 2009 21:25:01 GMT -5
Logan slowly lifted his head. Regan was crying? Where was mommy and daddy? He rubbed at his sleepy eyes as he sat up and walked over to the playpen. "Eegan.. Shh.. dun cy." He told her softly.
"So I guess you didn't care enough to wake me up and tell me..." She turned away from him looking to the corner of the room. "You disgust me..."
Logan jumped slightly at the loud tone of Harmony's. What... why was mommy so mad? Swallowing harshly, he left Regan's side and started heading down the hall to mommy and daddy's room.
"I think that I will never be that sweet loving pure soul like Emma." She paused and sighed. "I will never be her and your just upset that you got involved with me before she came along."
He wiped at his eyes. Why were they fighting? He was standing at their door, silent and still. "Mommy?" He called out softly. "Daddy?" His lips trembled at the loudness of mommy's voice. Was she mad at him?
"I will never be here...and I bet if we didn't have our kids that you would have dropped me like a fly and went for her."
Tears sprung to his eyes. He didn't understand this. Why.. why was mommy so mad? He couldn't hold in his sobs anymore. He took off running down the hall to the living room. He quickly climbed into the playpen near Regan, his hands over his ears. "TOP IT!"
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Post by Dean on Oct 27, 2009 21:32:54 GMT -5
"You what?" She said softly. "You kissed her even though you knew how I felt in the past about your relationship with her?"
She was pushing him away. He tried walking back over to her, but she was backed against the wall. "Harmony.." He shook his head. "I'm sorry..."
"You couldn't have told me earlier?" She raised her voice again. "Oh Dean Winchester you of all people should know that holding something like that in is worse than telling it." She paused. "So I guess you didn't care enough to wake me up and tell me..." She turned away from him looking to the corner of the room. "You disgust me..."
His heart broke in two. Tears sprung to his eyes as he tried to wrap his arms around her. "I know, and I'm so so sorry, Harm." He started. "I always meant to tell you.. but something always interrupted me from it. And it seemed something always kept interrupting me.. I know... and I'm so sorry!"
"You said she was like a daughter to you and you kissed her!" She growled out. "How does that solve anything." She said now in a full on scream. "If her thoughts were jumbled sticking your tounge down her throat won't sort them out!" She paused once again. "But you know what I think..." She started to step towards him. "I think that I will never be that sweet loving pure soul like Emma." She paused and sighed. "I will never be her and your just upset that you got involved with me before she came along."
He fell to his knees, his arms wrapping around her legs. "I"M SORRY!" He shouted, his eyes clenched shut. "I'm so sorry Harmony!" He shook his head. "I don't want Emma.. I want you, and I always will. Please... don't let this break us."
"I will never be here...and I bet if we didn't have our kids that you would have dropped me like a fly and went for her."
"Mommy?" He called out softly. "Daddy?"
"I'd never do that and you know it!" He shouted, ignoring Logan for the time being. He sniffed back his tears as his grasp tightened around her legs. "Please forgive me. I'm so sorry!" He could hear Logan's yell, but knew this argument was far from over....
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Post by Harmony on Oct 27, 2009 22:02:57 GMT -5
Harmony watched as he groveled at her feet. Her heart was breaking just as much as his. As much as she wanted to forgive him her mind and her heart could not tkae the risk. She watched her little boy with tear-filled eyes. He ran and she heard his scream. This fight was not going to end so quickly and she feared what her child would think of her after this. She looked at Dean and shook her head.
"I can't do it..." She paused. "I can't act like everything will be okay after this..." She stepped out of his arms and she sat on the edge of the bed. "You may be sorry, but my heart is not yet willing to fogive you. She sighed and ran her shaky hands through her hair. "Dean. I love you.. but I think this is just..." She paused. "Too much to handle right now.
She looked up and over at him. "I think that this just shows that people are right." She stood up. "People who get married because the girl gets pregnant never end up happy. She began to sob a little. "Even from the beggining when we lost our first child..." She paused. "I couldn't admit aloud but I blamed you.." She sobbbed. "And everyday I wonder what would have happen if you would have just kicked me out when I wasn't pregnant anymore."
Her bottom lip began to tremble. "Would we be happier?" She sobbed softly. "Would you be happier? Because obviously with me your not..." She felt crushed as she said each word. "I don't think we can truly ever love each other like we used to...and I see it becoming a fact everyday and this just put the cherry on top..." She sat back down.
"Maybe we were all wrong...a mistake.." She said with the little voice she had left. This was tearing her in two. She loved him, but she couldn't take this much longer. Going to sleep and never waking up would be less painful than this....
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Post by Dean on Oct 28, 2009 14:45:56 GMT -5
"I can't do it..." She paused. "I can't act like everything will be okay after this..." She stepped out of his arms and she sat on the edge of the bed. "You may be sorry, but my heart is not yet willing to fogive you. She sighed and ran her shaky hands through her hair. "Dean. I love you.. but I think this is just..." She paused. "Too much to handle right now.
There she was again, pushing him away. He took to his feet slowly. "Harmony.. Please... Don't let this break us. I love you so much it hurts at times." He pleaded with her. Walking to her as she sat on the edge of the bed. He crouched down, tears in his eyes as he rested his head in her lap. "Please..."
"I think that this just shows that people are right." She stood up. "People who get married because the girl gets pregnant never end up happy. She began to sob a little. "Even from the beggining when we lost our first child..." She paused. "I couldn't admit aloud but I blamed you.." She sobbbed. "And everyday I wonder what would have happen if you would have just kicked me out when I wasn't pregnant anymore."
"You.. You don't mean that." He cried. "I loved you too much to give up on us. Please... do the same for me now." He begged, holding her there so she couldn't run from him again. He wanted to take it all back. Start new with her and their kids. Poor Logan... He could hear him screaming still at the top of his lungs for them to stop fighting.
"Would we be happier?" She sobbed softly. "Would you be happier? Because obviously with me your not..." She felt crushed as she said each word. "I don't think we can truly ever love each other like we used to...and I see it becoming a fact everyday and this just put the cherry on top..."
His heart broke. "No... I'm happy with you. I love you and those kids and there's nothing that would ever change that Harmony!" He shouted at her, tears streaming down his face. "Please don't say this... please don't say it... Don't say we're done."
"Maybe we were all wrong...a mistake.."
"We are not a mistake. I love you with every fiber of my being. How is that a mistake when all I want to do is grow old with you!" He carressed her cheek tenderly. "Please forgive me Harmony.. If you don't then they win.. All those people who thought we'd never make it. Don't let them win."
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Post by Harmony on Nov 12, 2009 17:34:08 GMT -5
Harmony stood near the dresser in the far corner. She didn't dare face him. "Well what can I say Dean... The underdog doesn't always come out on top." She opened the closet and grabbed a duffle bag. She began to stuff clothes into the bag. They weren't her clothes though. They were his.
"Dean I think... I think maybe you should take Logan and go someplace to think...about things." She said these were just loud enough for him to hear. "I don't think I can take this right now..." She continued stuffing clothes in the bag.
She tossed the baqg towardsthe bag where he was still on his knees. "Dean I love you... but I can't deal with this..." She walked over and kissed his cheek. She calmed her breathing and walked over to his side of the bed. She grabbed his pillow and tossed it on top of the duffle bag.
She stopped choking up and beginning to let a sob out. "I guess this means we are temorarily seperated." She swallowed the words. "But worst of all I think I have officially given up on us." She began to sob uncontrollably. She ran into the bathroom and closed the door locking it.
She sat on the toilet and sobbed. She turned to the mirror opening the medicine cabinet. She grabbed about 4 tylenol and grabbed the listerine. "Only 2% alcohol?" She questioned tears blurring her vision. "That's not nearly enough..." she whispered chugging mouthfulls as she took the pills.
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Post by Dean on Nov 12, 2009 17:40:01 GMT -5
She was walking away, and within a blink of an eye, was stuffing his clothes into his old duffle bag. "H-harmony.." He shook his head, tears in his eyes. "Please don't.. don't do this.." He choked out. "Dean I think... I think maybe you should take Logan and go someplace to think...about things." She said these were just loud enough for him to hear. "I don't think I can take this right now..."
His head shook fiercely, but the words couldn't seem to come out as he fell to his hands and knees. She was kicking him out. "I guess this means we are temporarily separated."His mouth agape, he clung to the carpet. "Harmony.."
"But worst of all I think I have officially given up on us."
He quickly took his feet, trying to scoop her into his arms. But she was too fast to shut the door in his face. It hit him then.. it was over.. "I'm.." He closed his eyes tightly. "I'm so sorry.." He whispered, his hand on the door, his forehead leaning against it slightly.
He turned, picking up the bag and threw it over his back. "Logan.." He rubbed at his eyes. "C-c'mere.. " He crouched down as the boy drew near. "We're uh.." His heart was breaking into pieces. "We're gonna go away for a little while.."
[[figured if you wanted, you could NPC Logan and Regan for meh ^^ -cries- NOOOOOO DEAN DON'T GO!!!!]]
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Post by Harmony on Nov 12, 2009 18:36:20 GMT -5
Harmony slowly chugged the whole bottle of the listerine. By the time she reached tghe bottom of it she had slipped into a permanent sob as she rocked back and forth staring at the wall. What could she do now? Nothing he was probably out the door and half way to Emma's house now. - - - - - - - - Logan stood with tear stained cheeks. He stood arms crossed and tears still forming in his eyes. "I no go. Go hug mommeeee." He huffed sadly. "Daddy we stay, and play with rae rae?" Logan knew it was no useto argue with daddy, but he was still trying. Where was mommy? Why wasn't she trying to stop daddy from leaving? Logan grabbed his blanket on the couch and drug it across the floor until he reached his dad's legs. He tugged on his jeans. "I go tell mommy bye bye." He walked down the hallway to his parents bedroom. He looked around hearing crying coming from the bathroom. He knocked softly. "Mommy I go now. I lub yoohs mommay." He began to sniffle a bit. "Byeeee" He trudged down the hallway back to his daddy. - - - - - - - - - Regan cried out reaching up at her father. She had her pacifier in her mouth so all she could do was whine. She sniffled and continued crying. She was reaching as hard as she could, but she kept falling backwards. All of this was so new. She loved her parents and she couldn't understand what was going on. She had only been on this world a few months and already she was confused. |
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Post by Dean on Nov 12, 2009 18:45:07 GMT -5
Hearing Logan, he stayed silent, nodding softly as he watched him walk down the hall to Harmony. He let out a soft sigh as he took to his feet. Hearing Regan's whimpering made his heart ache all the more. He picked her up and held her close. "Shhh..." He kissed her cheek. "I love you baby girl.." He whispered, setting her back down in the crib as Logan came back out.
He held out his arms for Logan to walk into. Once he was close enough. He scooped him up into his arms, grabbing the bag and throwing it over his shoulder.
His eyes roamed the house once more, the kitchen where they made their meals, had food fights, and mini escapades. The living room, where they would cuddle close together after Logan was asleep, watching a movie or just not saying a thing.
It was the simplest things he'd miss the most. The way she smelled, the way she would wrap her arms around him and without a single word, he'd know she loved him with all of her heart. Tears sprung to his eyes as he gently ran a hand over Regan's head.
Walking to the door, he stopped, hand on the knob. "I never stopped loving you."
And with that, he was gone...
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