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Post by Logan on Jan 5, 2010 16:59:16 GMT -5
Fast Cars & Freedom" Bwwwvrrrmmmm!" He pulled the car down the hardwood floor in the living room, making engine noises as he went. Mommy and Daddy were sitting--well Mommy did alot of that lately--on the couch. " BOOM! Ahhhhh!" He laughed, moving his tiny green soldiers about. He was reenacting what had happened only days ago. " Ugh kapow!" He giggled, shooting the man in the air and watching him fall to the ground. His energy was on overload. Nothing to do, had to do as Mommy and Daddy told him. So He played. Only toys he had was the basketball, his car and his soldiers. Not much fun in that, thanks to daddy's poor toy grabbing skills. He sighed, grown bored with the car and soldiers and grabbed for the ball. He took to his feet, bouncing it on the floor. "Easy Logan." Logan stopped the ball, starring between Dean and Harmony. Why were they so quiet?
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Post by Harmony on Jan 5, 2010 18:19:38 GMT -5
Sitting. You would think you could never get tired of it, but Harmony was beyond tired of it. She was sick of it. Sick to her stomach sitting there knowing she couldn't stand on her own if she wanted to. Holding in all feelings of disgust with herself she held her baby girl in her hand. A bottle in the mouth of young Regan and a soft smile on hers as she watched her daughter eat. Looking up every once in a while she would glance at Logan watching him play with no worries. She almost wished she could be worry free like him, but she knew that was very close to impossible. She knew that Logan was trying to be a good boy. Those toys, the only ones Dean seeemed to grab in the rush, were not his favorite. Yet, Logan had been sweet and was behaving well....ever since the accident. Harmony almost shuddered, but she glanced down at Regan whose eyes were already closing. She knew any slight movement would wake her. softly caressing her cheek she watched amazed at how she could still suck on the bottle while she was falling asleep. Talking.... Not much was being done at the moment. Her and Dean hadn't talked much. She knew he was willing to talk, but she wasn't. She wasn't quite ready to accept. It all still seemed like a bad nightmare. And that it was....but it was still real. All the injuries....still real. Sometimes, when she tried to fall asleep she would tell herself that she would be able to feel her legs when she woke up....but it was a lie. She couldn't....and wouldn't be able to feel her legs. If an angel couldn't heal her she knew there was no hope. What was she supposed to do? How was she supposed to raise a family not being able to walk? No more long walks, no more chasing her children around, no more.....life. Life as she once knew it was over. Sure, it was all bad, and she would never be able to experience certain things...but one crossed her mind that would affect them both to a great extent. Not being able to make love...Sure there was still a possibility she would be able to, but it wouldn't be the same....She feared, even though she knew Dean loved her too much to do it again, she still feared he would move on to someone else...who would be able to give him what she could never truly give him again. |
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Post by Dean on Jan 5, 2010 18:31:28 GMT -5
He wished it over. Wished it never happened, wished... He sighed, sitting there with nothing to do. Felt bad about leaving Harmony to fight and watching the kids with what she was going through. Felt.. unwanted and unneeded for being here.. He was stuck. He watched logan play, watched him dribble the ball. Any other time he'd be up there playing right along with him. " Easy Logan." His son simply stopped and starred. " Just be careful." He told him gently. He felt bad, must be horrible to want to know what's going on and too young to know.. He sighed, realizing he never had that, and Logan should. So there should be no guilt, right? His eyes trailed to Harmony as she fed Regan. I know she feels bad. I know.. I can't.. I feel bad and not just because she's my wife, because she's my best friend. He thought to himself. He forgot how many times he tried to get her to talk to him, to open up. But she refused; wasn't ready. Quiet.. all so quiet. --- Logan continued to stare, nodding softly at Dean's order. He bounced the ball gently, careful not to lose control of it. " Mommy." He cleared his throat, speaking up and holding the ball to his chest. " Joo okay?" He asked, tilting his head. Well, if no one else was going to ask. He was. |
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Post by Harmony on Jan 5, 2010 18:47:35 GMT -5
Harmony temporarily glanced at Dean as he spoke to Logan. Watching the ball bounce she almost forgot about why she was so sad. Then Logan asked her if she was okay. She took a large breath careful to not move alot. Nodding softly.
"I'm fine Logan...I'm just...." She paused trying to find a way to word it. "Sick... and it makes mommy feel a little sad." She gave a hopeless smile. "But i'll be okay baby boy..." Flashing a small grin she noticed that Regan had finished eating and that she needed to be burped.
Lifting her up slowly she placed her softly on her shoulder. A once simple task was now very much close to a workout. Patting at her back ever so slightly she glanced over at Dean. She wanted so much for him not to be upset with her for not opening to him, but she wouldn't be able to stop the depression once it settled in.
Taking a deep breath she cradled Regan back normally in her arms. Slipping the pacifier into her mouth. Grinning down at it she smiled. "Daddy's girl" it read... and it was oh so true. Once she thought she was settled in her arms she started fumbling and kicking whining. Harmony sighed softly as the baby reached out for Dean.
Placing a small smile on her lips. She lifted Regan and held her up where her small feet were on her thighs...not that she could feel it. "Dean.. I think she wants her daddy..." She paused smiling up into his eyes. "Or atleat to fall asleep in your arms..." She said tryign to break the silence.
Regan looked up at her daddy reaching for him softly tugging at his sleeve. Her eyes were teary and she was whining through her paci in her mouth. Daddy's arms always brought comfort, not that mommy's didn't it was just different, and today she wanted her daddy.
Harmony gently handed Regan to Dean. Thinking she was about to get up and get something to drink she pushed herself up with her arms...Her legs crumpled like dead weight. She fell back down deeper into the couch. She broke. Her eyes started to form tears and she had short breaths.
She was useless....useless in the war, to her kids, and to her love.
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Post by Dean on Jan 5, 2010 19:00:29 GMT -5
"Mommy, joo okay?"
"I'm fine Logan...I'm just...." She paused trying to find a way to word it. "Sick... and it makes mommy feel a little sad." She gave a hopeless smile. "But i'll be okay baby boy..."
Dean smiled softly, silently thankful that Logan had been the one to break the ice. It was weird, he wanted to say so much, yet didn't know what to say. How was that even possible right now? Every other couple was bounded together, helping each other through it.
Maybe we're cursed. He thought. Cause something always happened with them. If it wasn't someone dying, it was someone coming back from the dead. Or Someone getting.. paralyzed. God.. that word held alot of unknown uncertainty in it.
Paralyzed... "Dean.. I think she wants her daddy..." She paused smiling up into his eyes. "Or atleat to fall asleep in your arms..."
Dean smirked, taking Regan's hands and letting her walk her way on over to him. "Hey pretty girl." He smiled, scooping her into his arms and smothering her with kisses. Once she was laying down in his arms he wrapped one around her and rocked softly.
His eyes trailed to Harm. "Hey." He spoke gently. "I love you."
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Logan nodded, watching Regan walk to Daddy's arms. He let the ball bounce from his own as he walked over towards Mommy, and climbed the couch. Sitting beside her, he smiled, leaning his head into her body. "Don' be sad mommy. I love joo toos." He said, crawling to his knees and laying a kiss to his mommy's right cheek.
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Post by Harmony on Jan 7, 2010 15:39:01 GMT -5
Harmony watched a smiling curling in her lips as Dean spoke to Regan. He loved her so much, and it showed more and more everyday. Looking away slightly tryign to fix her gaze on something she heard Dean say Hey. She turned her gaze to him just as he said he loved her. The smile grew and she felt her eyes tear up a little more.
"I love you too honey." She reached over and placed her hand on his shoulder and squeezed it tightly. She grinned trying to think happy thoughts. Hearing the ball hit the floor and stop Harmony looked over to Logan who was now climbing up on the couch. He leaned his head on her, and she could just barely feel it.
Wrapping her arm around his small body she let her hand scruff at his hair. She grinned while he spoke, but a few tears fell. Taking a small breath she replied. "I know you do baby boy. And i love you too...you, your, sister and your father more than anything in the world." She grinned leaning down and pressing her lips to his forehead.
Harmony felt better. The thought of being loved felt great. It raised her mood quite a bit. Feeling the tension escape the room she leaned over whispering in Dean's ear. "What should we do today? Logan is bored out of his mind." She asked trying to make everything seem better than it was.
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Post by Regan on Jan 7, 2010 15:43:47 GMT -5
Regan stood on Dean's legs, squeeing and giggling as she jumped around lightly. She looked over to Harmony, letting go of daddy's one hand and reaching out to her. "Mmmma-mmma" She squealed out in laughter.
She looked past mommy at Logan and grinned. "Mmmba!" She pointed at him. "Mmm ba!"
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Post by Dean on Jan 7, 2010 15:48:50 GMT -5
"I love you too honey."
He leaned in, kissing her temple softly as Regan started jumping around. "Ow.. hey!" He laughed, seeing that she was wound up and ready to go. No nap today, that was for sure. He shook his head, turning and watching as Logan climbed up and sat near Harmony.
"I know you do baby boy. And i love you too...you, your, sister and your father more than anything in the world."
He smiled as Logan smiled back up at her. He could see the tears in her eyes, and wanted to do everything he could to make her feel better. But wasn't sure yet on how to go about it. Regan jumped again, letting go of his one hand as she reached out to Harmony. "Ow chick.. watch where your steppin'."
"What should we do today? Logan is bored out of his mind."
He nodded, looking past her to his son who just sat there, starring at Regan. A soft laugh escaped his lips. "Waiting for Colette to get back, then we can head to do something.."
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Post by Harmony on Jan 8, 2010 14:41:06 GMT -5
Harmony smirked at her baby girl as she hopped up and down reaching for everything she could possibly try to touch. Harmony shook her head. "Can't handle are little fire cracker can you Dean?" She smirked and leaned up and gave him a small kiss on the lips.
Regan leaned foreward and placed her hands on her mommy's lips. Speaking baby jibberish Regan try to stick her fingers in her mouth. Harmony grinned acting as if she were going to bite her fingers. Pulling her hand away softly, Harmony kissed her fingers and let Regan hop up and down again.
Regan continued to wobble and grab for things. Harmony could only smile. Maybe she wasn't useless. Maybe she was just a little immobile, but everyone could work around that. Maybe even the doctors could help her walk again. Maybe something good could happen. "Well Then I guess we will just have to wait for Colette."
Harmony messed with Logan's hair tickling him a bit. "Sound good Logan?"
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Post by Dean on Jan 9, 2010 23:58:03 GMT -5
"Can't handle are little fire cracker can you Dean?"
Regan jumped around, giggling before Dean grasped her waste and plopped her down onto the floor. "Go jump down there." He chuckled, smiling over at Harmony. Regan turned, grabbing the couch cushion and pulled herself up. "Mmmgah! Dada!" She shouted at him before falling into laughter again.
She went to smack at Harmony's leg with her hand, but it phased through and she grinned, doing it over and over until Dean stopped her. "Okay--powers kicking in. Fun times for mommy and daddy. Chasing down the little girl who phases through things." He chuckled, picking Regan up and throwing her into the air--catching her a second later.
"Well Then I guess we will just have to wait for Colette." Harmony messed with Logan's hair tickling him a bit. "Sound good Logan?"
"Mhm." He nodded, looking to Logan who seemed awfully quiet. "What's up bud?" Dean asked, not taking his eyes off him.
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Logan shrugged, still leaning into harmony. "I wanna pay." He stated. "I wanna see Ollie, an' Unca Keenie, an' Aun Emmy." He sighed, pushing himself from the couch. "Daddy, I use powah?" He asked, tilting his head.
His hand outstretched, his fingers curling slightly as he moved the ball into life, making it dance around with his animation. He looked to both his mom and dad; waiting for their reactions.
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Post by Harmony on Jan 17, 2010 14:40:28 GMT -5
Regan was a little firecracker. She was going to be just like her mom when she was younger. Always hyper and always getting herself into trouble, but the powers were a different touch. That just added more work for mommy and daddy. Harmony shook her head laughing. "Looks like we have our hands full..." She smirked looking over at Dean.
Suddenly, all the attention was on Logan. He missed his best friend and he wanted to see them. She felt a wave of sadness come over her. He missed the normal life he had before all of this happened. Harmony kept a small smile on her face, but she felt bad for all the bad things happening that caused her sons life to change. She held a sigh in.
"Well we will just have to invite them over then won't we." Logan looked down at his ball and instantly it came to life dancing around. Her eye's widened. Her son was amazing as it was. So was Regan. They had powers, and it just so happened they were kind of good at controlling them. Harmony's sadness for Logan melted. Oliver and the Lawerence family would come over tonight.
As much as she had a bad feeling towards Emma, she could and would get over it. Atleast for Logan's sake, but this did not mean Harmony would ever be able to have a good conversation with the woman without almost punching heri n the face, but watching the kids play together. She could do that....possibly.
Finally, she spoke reacting to what her son had done. "Aww Logan that was cute...how did you learn that?" She asked a soft motherly smile on her face.
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Post by Dean on Jan 17, 2010 15:05:37 GMT -5
"Well we will just have to invite them over then won't we."
Logan's head shot up and over to Harmony, his connection with the ball severed as he ran towards her. "Ollie come ova and pay?" He asked, eyes bright and a large smile on his face. Dean smirked, laughing softly.
"Aww Logan that was cute...how did you learn that?"
He shrugged, his hands coming up as he did so. "I dunno, I jus' do eet." He turned around and pointed a finger at the ball, making it active once again. "See mommy?" Dean smiled, absolutely proud that his kids powers were starting to form. Animation and Phasing--he wondered what else was in store?
The door suddenly opened and Colette walked in with a bright smile. "Hello." She greeted them warmly. "Harmony, I have something for you actually." She turned, sticking her head out the door. A second later, Tyler wheeled in a wheelchair. "We found it outside the hospital." She explained.
Dean smiled, looking to Harmony for a reaction. "What do you think, hun?" It would make her mobile again at least.
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Post by Harmony on Jan 18, 2010 1:40:26 GMT -5
Harmony watched in amazement of the powers her son was demonstrating. "That's awesome little buddy." She said softly. She watched a grin creeping more and more over her face. He was excited that Ollie would be coming over soon, but she was not so excited about seeing Emma she shook the thought as a Hello erupted into the room.
Her eyes glanced over towards the door and to Colette. They had something for her? As soon as she saw the wheel chair she burst into tears. Sobs of happiness left her mouth. "Aww Colette if I could stand up and hug you right now I would.." She said between the tears. She looked at the chair through blurry eyes.
She would be able to move....just not walk. She would be able to go places, but she would still be sitting. She wiped her tears, and reached over blindy for Dean's hand. Finding it she sqeezed it tightly. "Thank you Colette, Thank you so much."
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Post by Dean on Jan 18, 2010 2:07:42 GMT -5
"Aww Colette if I could stand up and hug you right now I would.."
She smiled, walking over and hugging Harmony gently. "That's okay, I got ya covered hun." She laughed airily. "I hope those are good tears." She pointed out as she walked over and got the chair from Tyler. She wheeled it closer and smiled to Dean.
Putting Ray down, he took to his feet and picked harmony up, setting her gently in the chair. "How's that?" He asked, smiling softly as he wiped away one of her tears. "Thank you Colette, Thank you so much." Colette waved her off. "No problem hun. I gotta jet, left the kids with Charles and he's probably getting frustrated." She laughed, pointing at the door.
Tyler waved at them softly as he walked out the door, Colette following suit. Logan walked up to Harmony in the chair, placing a hand on the arm rest. "Mommy, wat dis?" He asked.
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Post by Harmony on Jan 18, 2010 3:24:02 GMT -5
Harmony looked up at Dean as Colette walked away. The tears kept streaming. "Baby this is the happiest I have been in a while." She tugged on his hand and made him lean down to kiss her. She kissed him softly on the lips. "I love you so much." Was all she could say before Logan came waltzing up.
"Well honey bun..." She grinned. "This is something that is going to help mommy be happier..." She said ruffling his hair a bit. She moved herself a bit with the wheels. She took a deep breath. "This was what I needed...Now I will be a much happier wife." She looked up grinning at Dean. "I promise."
This thought lingered. She knew she wouldn't be completely happy. Considering....there would still be no sex. She knew that was what was going to be the hardest. She was going to miss it, but she knew more than life Dean would. It was part of Dean's being to have sex....without sex would she have a happy husband?
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Post by Dean on Jan 19, 2010 11:31:32 GMT -5
He smiled, kissing her lips tenderly. "I love you too." He mused, a soft chuckle escaping him as he watched her. Parts of her subconcious was starting to seep into his own, and before he knew it, he was reading her like an open book. "Hey."
He bent down, placing a hand over hers. "Not everything is about sex." He smiled gently as Logan came over and sat on Dean's bent knee. "Mommy joo take me and Ray-ray for a ride?" He asked, tilting his head.
Ray crawled her way over, grasping at the wheelchair and pulling herself up. "Mmamama.." She held out a hand to Harm, opening and closing her fist. She wanted to go for a ride too!
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Post by Harmony on Jan 22, 2010 23:40:22 GMT -5
Harmony's jaw dropped. Softly sht hit Dean's shoulder and glared down at the children. "The reason they are called inner thoughts is because they belong inside my head, and if you can read them..." She giggled. "Then you shouldn't voice certain ones in front of the little people." She grinned softly down at Logan.
"Mommy joo take me and Ray-ray for a ride?"
Smiling softly she patted her lap. "Of course. Climb up." Next thing she knew her baby girl was climbing over and pulling herself up. Grabbing her under the arms Harmony placed her on one hip and situated Logan on the other leg.
"Alright are you ready for this ride guys?" She asked softly and motherly. She rolled forward and slowly, and she thought it was going to be easy. After turning a few times she was running out of breath. She turned to Dean. "Well I guess I had been saying I wanted to get my arms in shape...and this....this will do it.." She said as she rubbed her arms softly.
Grinning down at her children she sighed. "Mommy's going to have to take a break. It's alot of work..." She giggled softly.
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Post by Dean on Jan 22, 2010 23:45:20 GMT -5
"The reason they are called inner thoughts is because they belong inside my head, and if you can read them..." She giggled. "Then you shouldn't voice certain ones in front of the little people."
Dean laughed softly. "Woops." He grinned, leaning down and kissing her head. He watched as Logan climbed up onto her lap as she reached down and grabbed Regan. He stood there, hands in his jeans pockets watching them as she did a few turns.
"Well I guess I had been saying I wanted to get my arms in shape...and this....this will do it.."
He smiled softly, walking over and wheeling her back to the living room. "It takes time, baby." He said softly, kissing the top of her head. "You want me to grab some drinks and we can go sit outside for a bit? Let the kids run around." His eyes wandered down to Logan as he slipped down from Harmony's lap.
"Yea! ouside!" He grinned, hopping up and down.
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