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Post by Colette on Jan 27, 2010 20:22:28 GMT -5
It'd been a week since that night with Evangeline and Ainslie. She took Ainslie's advice to heart, but still felt like something was missing. The sun was setting, and all she wanted to do was cuddle up next to Charles. Her heart hurt.. and she wasn't sure why. She was near the verge of tears as she pushed her bedroom door open. Charles was laying on the bed reading something. She smiled softly as she walked over, and crawled onto the bed. She let out a soft sigh, taking the book he was reading from him. " Can you just.. hold me?" She asked softly. She laid down, placing her head on his chest as one arm encircled his waist. " I'm so lost, Charles.." She managed to say barely above a whisper. She closed her eyes, wanting to just stay like this forever. Right there in his arms, with his arms holding her. She felt so safe, so secure, so loved when she was in his arms. It was as if all her worries, all her stress... it just.. melted away... [[I'mma cry...]] |
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Post by charles on Jan 27, 2010 21:27:45 GMT -5
He was reading a book called "The Shack." It was extremely good. For the last few hours he hadn't been able to put it down. A man, who had lost his child and his faith in God, was given a second chance at his faith. He knew that his case with Laura wasn't as bad as some fathers in the world... Atleast his wasn't kidnapped and killed. As always, however, just the sound of Colette's voice could stop him from doing something. He loved to hold her. How long had he been away from them? Colette crawled into the bed and snuggled between his arms. "Can you just hold me?" she asked. Long day? Charles rested his cheek against the top of her head and took in a deep breath... right before his business cell phone rang. There was only one thing that called him on it... The Government. Colette shot him a look that plainly said "Don't answer it, please." Charles sighed sadly. They couldn't let him have a break. "I have to." He said and kissed her cheek. He stood up and crossed the room and grabbed his iPhone. "Hello..... yes.... I understand... How long? .. That's not an answer..." Charles gasped. "Please no.... no leave them i'll go, ILL GO." He said quietly... there was no use in letting Colette get worried... Charles turned around and avoided Colette's eyes. "I'm sorry, Colette.." He felt like crying. |
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Post by Colette on Jan 27, 2010 21:39:31 GMT -5
'Long day?'
"Something like that.." She whispered. Her eyes stared blankly at the door. This house held too many good memories of Laura growing up. Now she was just.. gone. Tears welled in her eyes, and she begged them not to fall.
His phone rang, and she gave him a look. "I have to." She sighed, rolling to her side of the bed and into a ball. She listened as he talked.. He was leaving. Again. She quickly wiped a tear from her eye before he could see it.
"I'm sorry, Colette.."
Please.. don't. She thought to herself, closing her eyes as she felt his hand on her back. She lifted her head, looking back at him. "What happened to 'I can tell them to take the job and shove it up their ass'?" She asked
She shook her head, sitting up slightly. "Don't." She said softly, looking away from him and then down to her lap. "Just.. don't go." She choked out, on the verge of tears.
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Post by charles on Jan 27, 2010 22:02:04 GMT -5
[[*tear falls* DAMNIT KEE T_T]]
"Whatever happened to 'I can tell them to shove the job up their ass'?" Colette looked at her hands. "Don't.... just don't go..." This was hard on him too. Charles didn't even know how long he'd be this time. And they said it was top secret... something told him he wouldn't be able to speak to his family for a while.
"I-" Charles began, but heaved a sigh and seemed to deflate. "I can't this time..." Charles pushed himself off the dresser and went to the closet to pull down a few suitcases. If you only knew what they told me... He thought, trying to keep it to himself.
Charles opened them and began putting clothes inside randomly. It was his fault of corse... He had decided to get a PHD in Health/Nuerological sciences, and Technology. He had decided to research the affects and abbilities of nanobots designed to enter the body... The government, however, was the problem with that... THEY jumped in and forced him to work for them. THEY never gave him an option on when and where he was going.
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Post by Colette on Jan 27, 2010 22:09:53 GMT -5
"I-" Charles began, but heaved a sigh and seemed to deflate. "I can't this time..."
Her mouth hung open slightly as she watched him get up and grab suitcases. That was all he was going to say? She bit down on her lower lip, her eyes evasive. "So that's it then?" She questioned, her eyes flicking back to him at the closet.
She sat there, starring at him. The more she did, the more angry she got. "What about me? About Laura, Parker and Eliza?" She asked, taking to her feet. ' If you only knew what they told me...' She didn't want to know. She never did, it was hard enough to see him go. But to think he was in some kind of danger? She couldn't take that.
"Parker and Eliza are two months old, and you've only been with them what? Two weeks out of their entire life?" Her brows furrowed. "I didn't know I was a single mom, Charles." She sighed, shaking her head as she looked down at her feet. Her arms wrapped around herself as she stood there.
She wanted him to say he wasn't going. That he was quitting, working someplace closer. She wanted him to say he loved her, and nothing came before their family. Her heart sank, tears threatening to fall. "Am I not enough?" She choked out, looking up and catching his eyes, her own filled with tears.
[[-cries-]]
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Post by charles on Jan 27, 2010 22:19:20 GMT -5
Charles wanted to throw something... no... go to a shooting range and let some of his anger out.... but that couldn't happen. "Am I not enough?" She sounded like she was about to cry. Charles shot up and walked to her grabbing her by the shoulders.
"NO! Don't ever THINK that Colette! You know better then anyone that the government doesn't take 'no' for an answer. Otherwise I'd stay home and teach by your side... and help you raise our kids! I don't want the same thing to happen to Eliza and Parker that happened to Laura.... I want them to know me...." A tear rolled down his eye.
"But that's the problem this time." Charles sat down on the bed next to her and put his elbows on his knees and his head in his hand. "That's the problem with them... They take what and who you love... and turn it against you."
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Post by Colette on Jan 27, 2010 22:28:25 GMT -5
"NO! Don't ever THINK that Colette! You know better then anyone that the government doesn't take 'no' for an answer. Otherwise I'd stay home and teach by your side..."
Her vision blurred with tears as he held her by her shoulders. She shook her head, small cries leaving her lips as she laid her head against his chest. "and help you raise our kids! I don't want the same thing to happen to Eliza and Parker that happened to Laura.... I want them to know me...." The sobs came harder as her arms wrapped around him, clinging to his shirt.
"That's the problem with them... They take what and who you love... and turn it against you."
She knew that better than anyone. She wiped at her tears furiously. "It's not fair." She sounded like a little kid. But she didn't care. She just wanted him. That's all. Nothing else, the house, everything.. she didn't care. She just wanted him.
"I really do.. I can't.." She shook her head, eyes closed as she took in a deep breath. "You don't understand how much pressure and stress I'm under right now.." She managed to get out. "Not just with the kids.." She looked at him as they sat on the bed.
"Everything." She paused. "I want to quit. This.." Her eyes went around the mansion. "It's too much.. I can't handle it anymore, and you're not here.. and Laura.." She choked on more tears. "I.. I can't.." She shook her head, stopping her sobs to get it out.
"I'm alone. You leave, and I'm alone." She paused, looking into his light brown eyes. "I can't do it anymore.."
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Post by charles on Feb 8, 2010 15:29:35 GMT -5
Charles looked down at Colette and wondered how long it would be until he saw her again. He knew she couldn't do this all alone. Tears ran down Charles' cheeks. He knelt down and kissed her on the forehead.
"They said... that if I didn't go... they'd take you and Parker, and Eliza... I have to go Colette... i couldn't live with myself if they hurt any of you." Charles drew in a breath then stood up and began to finnish packing. "I love you, Colette."
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Post by Colette on Feb 8, 2010 17:14:25 GMT -5
She listened. But allowed her emotions to get the best of her. She knew she was going to say something she'd soon regret. But she couldn't stop herself from saying it. "No." She shook her head pushing herself up and off the bed. "No, cause if you did. You would be here. Being the father and husband I know you can be. You'd be here, fighting right beside me. But you're not. You're going.. You're not even fighting a little, Charles." She threw at him, her eyes red and rimmed with tears.
"It doesn't matter what they say, what they do. Can't you see that they get what they want every single time? Us, apart." She wrapped her arms around her lossely, eyes evasive. "But you know what...?" She asked softly. "It's okay." She looked up and into his eyes.
"I think I'm getting use to it." She choked out, turning and beginning to walk away. She didn't want to see him pack. Didn't want to say goodbye again. She just.. couldn't.
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Post by charles on Feb 10, 2010 23:16:40 GMT -5
"It's okay... I think i'm getting used to it." The words stabbed at him. He felt broken again. What was he soposed to do? Watch them take his family away from him? Charles hated the position he was in. Charles shook the thought out of his head. Neither of them were good at goodbyes, he needed to pack and leave the house whose walls seemed to be, now, closing in on him.
Charles closed the last suitcase and pulled them off the bed. Charles quickly walked into Parker and Eliza's room. He smiled looking at them. "I'll be back soon guys, I swear." They had to know him, he would not let them suffer like Laura had. Charles clenched his heart at the thought of Laura. He grabbed his bags then continued downstairs.
He saw Colette.
"I love you." He said quietly.
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Post by Colette on Feb 10, 2010 23:23:48 GMT -5
She expected him to stop her.
She expected him to say he loved her, that he wasn't leaving, and that all of this was one horribly written joke. But as she took the last step into the foyer, she realized that what she expected, would never happen. She closed her eyes, tears welling as her heart broke into tiny pieces.
She wouldn't be the same when he got back. She wouldn't.. she couldn't. They were suppose to grow together, not apart. She took in a deep shaky breath as she heard his footsteps in the hallway. Part of her just wanted to run.. to just get away.
But she knew she'd regret not saying goodbye. She turned, readying herself to head back up to him. But he was right there, looking at her. "I love you." Her bottom lip trembled, and within a blink of an eye she was wrapped her arms around his waist.
Her ear against his heart, she could feel and hear it beat. Knew that this wasn't some horrible dream. This was real life, and the worst of it. "Please don't go." She choked out between sobs as she cried into his chest.
"I love you too, so please.." She looked up, her eyes red as she met his. "Just please don't go."
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