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Post by Jude on Jul 14, 2010 22:36:25 GMT -5
"I could never laugh at something as sweet as this,"
He smiled, his thumb gently rubbing her chin a moment. "Me too," he let out a sigh, head resting ontop of hers as they continued to sway. He was in trouble, he knew it. He couldn't keep them both, it was selfish; he knew that. But it didn't stop him from wishing it could happen.
He never wants to hurt either of them, despite this; He'll always see Lena. They share a bond, through that unborn baby girl. His girl. Their girl. But this, this feeling he had when his arms were around Spyra, this was... this fit too.
"Fuck Jude Carter... You're gonna make me fall in love with you..."
The song slowly ended, and with it came silence. Swallowing roughly, he licked his lips. What was he suppose to say? 'Sorry?' 'Isn't that what's suppose to be happening?' Taking in a deep breath he smiled faintly down at her. "You sure about that?" He paused, brows furrowed. "Sure you want me? Sure you want me and a kid, and Lena?"
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Post by Spyra Areleous on Jul 14, 2010 23:06:26 GMT -5
"You sure about that?" He paused, brows furrowed. "Sure you want me? Sure you want me and a kid, and Lena?"
She swallowed, instantly regretting letting that admission slip past her lips. It had completely torn down the cute, romantic vibe he had set up. She wanted that back. She wanted to be able to lean against him and pretend that there was no Lena, no baby. That she was his one and only, at least for now, and he only wanted to be with her.
Stupid freaking novels with noble, charming men and witty, independent woman who always get the man... Completely altered her view of romance and relationships... Skewed her expectations. "Well," she stated carefully, "I don't want Lena." She smiled with a bit of effort. "But that's only because I don't swing that way." Bad attempt at a joke. Sighing, she shrugged. What could she even say. She wanted him, she didn't want the situation he was in.
Not the baby. She could handle that. Whatever; she loved kids. It was just... Could she be with a man who was spliting his heart between two women? Licking her lips, Spyra turned so she could burrow her face into his shoulder. She was going to be honest but she wasn't sure she could look him in the eyes while saying it.
"I don't know," she admitted softly. "I want you, Jude, I do. But..." She swallowed. "I don't know. I don't want to get hurt and I don't want to make this hard for you and... I'm probably being really selfish right now by even being here..." She should just walk away right now, leave him to be with Lena so they could be a happy, healthy family. But she wasn't ready to lose him. Not yet. "But..." she said, knowing it was getting repetitive, "I don't know."
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Post by Jude on Jul 15, 2010 11:31:55 GMT -5
"Well," she stated carefully, "I don't want Lena." She smiled with a bit of effort. "But that's only because I don't swing that way."
He only smiled softly at the joke. Because it really wasn't the best timing. He really, truly wanted to know how she felt about this. "I don't know," she admitted softly. "I want you, Jude, I do. But..."
There was a but. He sighed, head dipping low to listen as she went on. "I don't know. I don't want to get hurt and I don't want to make this hard for you and... I'm probably being really selfish right now by even being here..." He nodded gently, taking her hand and slowly moving towards the patio.
Taking a seat on the steps he nodded again as she repeated herself. "I don't want to hurt you. I don't want to hurt Lena... I, myself don't want to get hurt because of this either.." He started. "You're not selfish. I'm selfish, Spyra. I'm wanting to keep you both for reasons I can't honestly explain. It's like, I'm happy with you. But I'm also happy with Lena. You both kinda... fit. Like you're both fulfilling something the other can't...do." His speech slowed and his eyes locked with hers.
"I'm not saying... I mean..."
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Post by Spyra Areleous on Jul 15, 2010 11:57:54 GMT -5
She let out a sigh, following him and sitting nearby. Stretching her legs out in front of him, she listened as he spoke, pointing and curling her toes in her flats. She wanted to lay a hand over his but couldn't, not now. "It's like, I'm happy with you. But I'm also happy with Lena. You both kinda... fit." She could understand that. Well, maybe not understand it, but she could believe it. She had never had that "in love with two people at one time" problem, thank God.
" Like you're both fulfilling something the other can't...do." That hurt. Well, it didn't so much hurt as made her really curious. What was it that Lena could do that she couldn't? And...what did she have that Lena didn't? She swallowed again, thinking, wondering. What if she were to get with another guy while with Jude? What would he think of that? But that would be bitter and spiteful and she didn't want to be that way about this. She didn't really feel that way. Sighing heavily through her nose, her shoulders slumped as her head dropped off to the side. Well, fuck. What did they do with this?
"I'm not saying... I mean..." She shook her head softly, cutting him off. "S'okay," she assured him in a breathy voice. "I...get where you're coming from, I guess. Just... Kind of an impasse here. I mean." She shook her head again but this time at herself. She didn't even know what she was saying. Might as well just cut to the chase, right? "I'm not backing out, Jude," she said firmly. "As long as you're in for this then so am I." She would just be careful. And the minute she felt she was being taken advantage of, she would drop off.
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Post by Jude on Jul 15, 2010 12:46:59 GMT -5
She was being awfully quiet. And it made him wonder again if she was doubting. Or just, what she was thinking, plain and simple. He really wished his telepathy would hurry and advance like Colette said it would.
"S'okay," she assured him in a breathy voice. "I...get where you're coming from, I guess. Just... Kind of an impasse here. I mean."
His brows furrowed as he turned and looked at her. What did that mean? Was she saying that it was impossible to advance in this relationship with her? He took in a deep breath and waited for the worst.
"I'm not backing out, Jude," she said firmly. "As long as you're in for this then so am I."
He let out a deep sigh he didn't know he was holding. Licking his ips he reached out and grabbed her hand. "I am." He whispered. "It's not going to be easy." He told her straight up. "But I'd like to think it'd be worth it."
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Post by Spyra Areleous on Jul 15, 2010 13:15:19 GMT -5
"I am." He whispered. "It's not going to be easy." She nodded; she knew that. Lacing their fingers together, she replied, "I know. I know that. But... We can make it work; work through it."
As long as they were both invested in this, they could get through the unconventional situation they were in. Like he said: it wouldn't be easy. It wouldn't be easy but... "But I'd like to think it'd be worth it."
She grinned a little lop-sidedly, dropping her head to rest against his shoulder. "That's what I was just thinking." It would be worth it; she believed that. Jude cared about her and she cared about him and... She was willing to put the time and effort into making whatever they had here be the best that it could be. And she was pretty sure that Jude was too.
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Post by Jude on Jul 16, 2010 12:24:24 GMT -5
"I know. I know that. But... We can make it work; work through it."
He smiled, nodding softly. "That's what I was just thinking." His smiled widened as she leaned over, placing her head on his shoulder. Wrapping an arm around her, he gently laid his cheek on the top of her head. And they sat just like that.
"You wanna come in?" he asked softly, looking to his watch. It was only nine thirty. They still had time right? "I can kick the kids out of the tv area." He joked with a chuckle, though it's what he usually did when he wanted to watch tv. When it was games, it was a different thing. "Or we could play the PS3, or the Wii." He grinned.
"It's really up to you. I mean I can give you a tour?" He wasn't sure if Lena was home or not, but at this point, nothing could really ruin this night.
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Post by Spyra Areleous on Jul 16, 2010 13:03:29 GMT -5
She nodded at the invitation, twisting a little to meet his eyes. "Yeah, I'd like that." As he listed off a few suggestions, Spyra couldn't help but imagine the two of them cuddled up close on a sofa, lights off, some movie playing dimly in the background... That would be nice. Very nice.
But then he went on and Spyra couldn't help the excited little gasp that left her at the mention of Wii. "Oh, I will so kick your ass at Wii." Spyra and her brother had never had the game system but one of her co-workers did and Spyra had been over to play a few times. It was the most fun she ever had. So they could cuddle with a movie after Wii, after she collapsed from the expended energy.
"A tour would be nice too, though," she admitted. She'd like to know where he lived, what it looked like and everything. Just get a better idea of Jude Carter.
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Post by Jude on Jul 16, 2010 13:07:50 GMT -5
"Yeah, I'd like that."
"Mkay." he moved to get up, but heard the gasp from her and relaxed back into their previous position. "Oh, I will so kick your ass at Wii." He raised a brow, a grin on his face. "Oh really now? I don't know, I'm pretty good. Gonna have to ask the other guys if you can beat me." He chuckled.
"A tour would be nice too, though,"
He smiled, finally taking to his feet and holding out a hand to her. "So what'll it be first? Tour, movie, Wii?" He chuckled softly, walking to the door and opening it up for her. Anything was fine with him. The more time they spend together, just like this... It was more than okay with him.
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Post by Spyra Areleous on Jul 16, 2010 13:25:57 GMT -5
Spyra hummed in thought as she took his hsnd easily. Tugging close, she answered, "Tour first." She nodded decisively, going on. "Then Wii, then movie." She grinned as they headed inside. This was turning out to be a good evening. It started out crappy, with the working, and then got better and then turned awkward but now... Now it was turning out to be not so bad. Not so bad at all.
Once they were inside, Spyra smirked up at him, lacing their fingers together. Taking up a faux seductive tone, she asked, "So... Do I get to see your room?" She ended up in giggles, shaking her head slightly. Yeah, she was so gonna just tumble into bed with him. Well, she wouldn't mind cuddling and making out and getting close but... Not that night.
[[gahhh S&S; sorry]]
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Post by Jude on Jul 16, 2010 13:31:42 GMT -5
"Tour first." She nodded decisively, going on. "Then Wii, then movie."
"Alright." He chuckled softly, smiling down at her as she pulled closer to him. Walking through the kitchen he smiled. "The kitchen." He chuckled, pulling her along through the doorway to the living room.
"So... Do I get to see your room?"
He stopped, looking back at her with a brow raised and a smirk on his face. Laughing a moment later, he pulled her close. "That's the last stop on this tour, missy." He grinned. "So this is the living room, and that over there is the foyer where the front door is, nothing special. Upstairs is where it's at."
He nodded to some of the other guys in the living room who were watching tv. But had ended up watching Jude giving out a tour to some girl. He could hear them laughing as they moved up the stairs.
"So each room is apparently the shade of the name. Like earth is green... yada yad." He smiled. "This is my favorite part." he pulled her through a door that lead into a room that lead outside to the balcony overlooking the pool.
"Ready?" He asked, before opening the door that lead outside.
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Post by Spyra Areleous on Jul 16, 2010 13:44:43 GMT -5
She nodded, following him around to each room. It really was impressive. Huge. Enormous. Spyra had always lived in small, cramped areas. Usually overcrowded with people. Sure, she was only with her one brother now. But still, they were living in a one-bedroom, fourth-floor walk up apartment. Compared to this place... Shit, this place was amazing.
"That's the last stop on this tour, missy." She laughed easily, shaking her head. "Ah, save the best for last and all that, huh?" Ignoring the laughter of the boys (Except for a knowing smirk), she followed him along.
"Your favorite part?" she asked, curious. What could it be? "Ready?" She nodded, following after him, keeping their hands together. "What is it?" she wanted to know, voice soft.
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Post by Jude on Jul 16, 2010 13:48:53 GMT -5
"Ah, save the best for last and all that, huh?"
He laughed. "Right." He nodded softly, his back turned to the door, hands on the knob. "What is it?" He smiled softly, opening the door and walking out backwards. "Look." He moved out of her way so she could walk out completely on the balcony.
"This is my favorite place." He paused, pointing. "Evan got lucky, she got a room right over there. It's connected to this, so she's usually out here planning whatever." Not know if she knew who that was, he smiled. "She's a teacher's assistant."
[[S&S sorry]]
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Post by Lena on Jul 16, 2010 15:26:42 GMT -5
Lena leaned forward the best she could. Whistling she called out for Felix. "Where you at buddy?" She called out softly. Getting up she wobbled forward trying to steady herself. "Felix." She sighed. Even the dog had deserted her. "Really Felix..." She sighed softly. "I'll give you a treat." She rolled her eyes he really wasn't going to come up to her room. "Well fine then." She mumbled walking out of her bedroom. Looking at the stairs she sighed softly. She really didn't want to walk down tthose. She usually had to walk sideways because she couldn't see the stairs underneath her. The perks of being pregnant. Walking forward she was about to take the first step when she heard Jude's voice. Smiling softly she waddled down the hallways following his voice. The balcony? He always was sneaking out there. She opened the door and called out pushing her hair from her face. "Hey Jude I was wondering..." She stopped right in her tracks. She started to fidget as soon as she saw the other girl. Her eyes widened. "Um.. Hi." She waved awkwardly. "You must be Spyra." She prayed to god it was spyra. She couldn't deal with another girl in Jude's life. "I'm Lena." She said softly. Placing her hands on her stomach she looked up at Jude. "I should uh....go....back to my room." She was about to turn around and head back. She looked at Jude in the eyes. "If you see Felix tell him I have treats for him if he comes and lays with me. My heating blanket broke." |
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Post by Spyra Areleous on Jul 17, 2010 14:11:23 GMT -5
"Look." She looked, stepping further out onto the balcony. HOly crap. The view across the back was gorgeous. "This is my favorite place." She nodded vaguely. "I can see why..." No fair; mutants got all the cool stuff. Leaning on the railing, Spyra kept her eyes on the grounds as he spoke. Turning back to him once he finished, she smiled lightly. "Thanks for showing me this," she said, stepping toward him. She was just leaning up for a kiss when a voice distracted her.
"Hey Jude I was wondering..." Spyra looked up and saw a pretty blonde enter. A pretty, pregnant blonde. Oh shit. "You must be Spyra." Spyra nodded wordlessly, feeling her cheeks flame. "Yeah. I... And you must be..." "I'm Lena." She nodded again, fidgeting awkwardly. Well, this made things incredibly real. Here was this gorgeous girl before her, the girl who was pregnant with the baby of the boy she was with at that moment.
Lena spoke to Jude a moment and Spyra thought it better to just stay silent. All the playful romance she had been feeling toward Jude had jumped off the balcony at Lena's entrance. She couldn't help but feel incredibly bad for doing this... So what if Lena was aware of the situation... Spyra still felt like shit. She glanced to Jude, waiting for him to take the lead.
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Post by Jude on Jul 17, 2010 14:18:41 GMT -5
"I can see why... Thanks for showing me this."
He smiled, leaning against the railing. He could see Felix outside, laying near the pool. It was such a nice night. It went from crappy to uncomfortable to... pretty damn good. All in all, he was glad he had told her everything.
"Hey Jude I was wondering..."
His head turned, watching as Lena walked out onto the balcony. He wasn't sure how this was going to go. He hoped well, cause he honestly didn't know what to do.
"You must be Spyra."
"Yeah. I... And you must be..."
"I'm Lena."
He swallowed roughly, turning around and leaning against the railing again. "I should uh....go....back to my room." Should he say no? Or yes? Hell, he wasn't sure. All he knew is if he felt awkward, he could only imagine how the other two felt.
If you see Felix tell him I have treats for him if he comes and lays with me. My heating blanket broke."
His eyes flicked to the pool down below and back to Lena. "He's down by the pool." he turned, whistling loudly. "Felix!" He watched as the dog raised his head and he talked with him a moment before watching Felix run into the house. Turning back to Lena he tried to smile. "He's on his way, and I'll buy you another one." He told her softly.
God, this was fucking awkward.
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